Happily Never After

The fact is that I am completely undone about romantic relationships. I have doubted, hated, and destroyed myself with poor choices in this aspect of the last 14 years of my life. Come to think of it I have always looked to others to validate me. Don't get me wrong, I don't need someone verbally smearing me with honey, but I have literally looked for myself in the eyes of another. 

I love to encourage others. I love to put into others' lives. I have just never learned to invest in myself. Over the past two years, I have learned who I am. I have not always acted like the princess that I know I can be or even should be.

Chasing the Wind

Most days my thoughts are caught by the wind and carried away. Today is one of those 'special' days. I am struggling with my medication lately. I took a trip in February, and have had a hard time getting back on schedule since then. My friend told me that she saw me cycle through mania and depression a few times over the span of that week of our vacation. That is a scary thought, since I promised myself that I would never let myself get there again.