Showing posts with label Bipolar. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Bipolar. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Happily Never After

The fact is that I am completely undone about romantic relationships. I have doubted, hated, and destroyed myself with poor choices in this aspect of the last 14 years of my life. Come to think of it I have always looked to others to validate me. Don't get me wrong, I don't need someone verbally smearing me with honey, but I have literally looked for myself in the eyes of another. 

I love to encourage others. I love to put into others' lives. I have just never learned to invest in myself. Over the past two years, I have learned who I am. I have not always acted like the princess that I know I can be or even should be.

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

I NEED A Wish Right NOW!




Manic episodes lend to wishing, dreaming, wondering...These lend to frustration and agitation. (for me anyways) This has been one hell of a summer. Life Never goes to plan, so I yell "Plot Twist!"

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Battle Scars



This song hits me to the core. I have been in and out of relationships for the last 14 years of my life. Never giving myself a chance to breath, I ran from one to another. Impulsiveness is not unique for someone with a diagnosis of Bipolar.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

If the Tennis Shoe Fits...



It has been approximately 11 months since I have stepped into the gym. This is the same gym that I have continued to pay a monthly fee of 21 dollars and some change. I guess if I would have cancelled it, then I may have never gone back. Well, that is what I am going to tell myself. On March 16th of 2015 I finally crossed the threshold and decided to put myself on a healthier path. I am tired of being tired. Dealing with the wearing of hypothyroidism, chronic Fibromyalgia, and  bipolar has taken a toll on my emotions, mind, and body. I am about to be 35 years young and I want to feel good about my body.

Confessions of early morning wakings


 
I have been up since 2:30ish this morning. I probably could have gone back to sleep, but instead I picked up my phone to look for things to pin to my Pinterest boards and read goofy articles about,  love, sex, and the Simpsons. Yea, you read that correctly.  There is so much out there on the world wide Web that our minds could actually explode. Most of the articles left me scratching my head as to why I even wasted my time.

Thursday, March 12, 2015