Battle Scars

This song hits me to the core. I have been in and out of relationships for the last 14 years of my life. Never giving myself a chance to breath, I ran from one to another. Impulsiveness is not unique for someone with a diagnosis of Bipolar.

Wind out of My Sails

It is in that moment that I am sailing along complete in my faith and knowing that God is healing me from the inside out, in spite of my foolishness, that I get a message from a ghost from my past. Unexpected, long awaited, life-giving words came to my e-mail inbox. I completely lost my breath. The wind was seeking absolution from the pain it caused.

If the Tennis Shoe Fits...

It has been approximately 11 months since I have stepped into the gym. This is the same gym that I have continued to pay a monthly fee of 21 dollars and some change. I guess if I would have cancelled it, then I may have never gone back. Well, that is what I am going to tell myself. On March 16th of 2015 I finally crossed the threshold and decided to put myself on a healthier path. I am tired of being tired. Dealing with the wearing of hypothyroidism, chronic Fibromyalgia, and  bipolar has taken a toll on my emotions, mind, and body. I am about to be 35 years young and I want to feel good about my body.

Confessions of early morning wakings

 

I have been up since 2:30ish this morning. I probably could have gone back to sleep, but instead I picked up my phone to look for things to pin to my Pinterest boards and read goofy articles about,  love, sex, and the Simpsons. Yea, you read that correctly.  There is so much out there on the world wide Web that our minds could actually explode. Most of the articles left me scratching my head as to why I even wasted my time.

Generalizations are Death to ALL things...

IRONY is my world. I grew up with a grandmother and aunt with the greatest sense of ironic, sarcastic, twisted humor (in my opinion). I laugh at things that to the majority of the population would not necessarily laugh at. My brain works differently than most, so I embrace it. I love seeing plot twists in life. I don't relish or find humor in pain, but I have a deep respect for it. I don't diminish anyone's journey and how they deal with their hurts, but I also don't ever want to walk in someone's shoes. I can still sympathize at the least. I can have compassion or I can take my shoes and walk away. Such is the way of relationships in my life.

Generalizations come in many forms. Skin color, a place a person lives relatively to the  north or south side of town, in an argument, politics, religion, but mostly in IGNORANCE.
Though generalizations may not bring death to ALL things, they do require intense forgiveness. Words to avoid: always, never, every...etc. I think you get the idea.

What Came first, the chicken or the egg?

Rain, Rain Go Away! By the Way, Stay Away!

The answer to the age old question is a no-brainer...

Quiz Links for Mental Illness

Click to Determine Mania

This quiz allows you to keep track of Manic Episodes based on a series of questions. Mania can have a slight misconception of one being super hyper. *This doesn't replace the opinion and diagnosis by your General/Family/Internist Doctor and/or psychiatrist.

Click to Determine Depression

This is a quiz that will present an array of symptoms and give you a score that could determine that there is a possibility of depression present.  *This doesn't replace the opinion and diagnosis by your General/Family/Internist Doctor and/or psychiatrist.