If the Tennis Shoe Fits...

It has been approximately 11 months since I have stepped into the gym. This is the same gym that I have continued to pay a monthly fee of 21 dollars and some change. I guess if I would have cancelled it, then I may have never gone back. Well, that is what I am going to tell myself. On March 16th of 2015 I finally crossed the threshold and decided to put myself on a healthier path. I am tired of being tired. Dealing with the wearing of hypothyroidism, chronic Fibromyalgia, and  bipolar has taken a toll on my emotions, mind, and body. I am about to be 35 years young and I want to feel good about my body.

Confessions of early morning wakings

 

I have been up since 2:30ish this morning. I probably could have gone back to sleep, but instead I picked up my phone to look for things to pin to my Pinterest boards and read goofy articles about,  love, sex, and the Simpsons. Yea, you read that correctly.  There is so much out there on the world wide Web that our minds could actually explode. Most of the articles left me scratching my head as to why I even wasted my time.

Generalizations are Death to ALL things...

IRONY is my world. I grew up with a grandmother and aunt with the greatest sense of ironic, sarcastic, twisted humor (in my opinion). I laugh at things that to the majority of the population would not necessarily laugh at. My brain works differently than most, so I embrace it. I love seeing plot twists in life. I don't relish or find humor in pain, but I have a deep respect for it. I don't diminish anyone's journey and how they deal with their hurts, but I also don't ever want to walk in someone's shoes. I can still sympathize at the least. I can have compassion or I can take my shoes and walk away. Such is the way of relationships in my life.

Generalizations come in many forms. Skin color, a place a person lives relatively to the  north or south side of town, in an argument, politics, religion, but mostly in IGNORANCE.
Though generalizations may not bring death to ALL things, they do require intense forgiveness. Words to avoid: always, never, every...etc. I think you get the idea.

What Came first, the chicken or the egg?

Rain, Rain Go Away! By the Way, Stay Away!

The answer to the age old question is a no-brainer...

Quiz Links for Mental Illness

Click to Determine Mania

This quiz allows you to keep track of Manic Episodes based on a series of questions. Mania can have a slight misconception of one being super hyper. *This doesn't replace the opinion and diagnosis by your General/Family/Internist Doctor and/or psychiatrist.

Click to Determine Depression

This is a quiz that will present an array of symptoms and give you a score that could determine that there is a possibility of depression present.  *This doesn't replace the opinion and diagnosis by your General/Family/Internist Doctor and/or psychiatrist.

Chasing the Wind

Most days my thoughts are caught by the wind and carried away. Today is one of those 'special' days. I am struggling with my medication lately. I took a trip in February, and have had a hard time getting back on schedule since then. My friend told me that she saw me cycle through mania and depression a few times over the span of that week of our vacation. That is a scary thought, since I promised myself that I would never let myself get there again.

Pseudonym

I began this blog with the hope to help just one person. I began as myself. The moment I got the "I don't understand why you do what YOU do." BS, I began to hide again. Walls came UP... 

The Best of the Best Mood Stabalizers

Lithium; Benzodiazepines: Alprazolam (Xanax), Diazepam (Valium), Lorazepam (Ativan), and Clonazepam (Klonopin); AntiConvulsants: Valproate (Depakote), Carbamazepine (Tegretol), Lamotrigine (Lamictal), Gabapentin (Neurontin), Topiramate (Topamax); Antipsychotics: Olanzapine (Zyprexa), Risperidone (Risperdal), Clozapine (Clozaril), Quetiapine (Seroquel), Ziprasidone (Geodon)… And that is just for Manic Episodes!

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Being True to Myself

Silence doesn't mean that all things are good in one's life. I thought I was just being a private person, but it was shame. For a period of time I shut myself away.

Misconceptions of Bi-Polar Symptoms

The link below leads to a blog written by a doctor who describes how some may view the symptoms of a bi-polar person. 

PROGRESS Haulted

My Bi-Polar disorder is my enemy today, not that it is ever my friend. The hardest part of having a large goal, such as this blog, is that i experience this fantastic high of emotions and motivation,  then CRASH! I hit a wall. My thoughts grow throughout my mind like viral bacteria. It overwhelms my train of thought until I can't breath and I am paralyzed mentally.  It doesn't just affect this one activity.  It affects work and home. I become numb.